Thursday, April 1, 2010

S-E-A Double T L-E



For anyone that missed it on Facebook,
Jeremy matched for his residency.
That means we are headed to...


SEATTLE!


Jeremy will start his psychiatry residency at the University of Washington in June. We'll have a crazy month with his graduation from medical school, the wedding, the honeymoon, and now moving. It will be busy and exciting and probably exhausting, but we're looking forward to it.


I had two prerequisites for moving. 1-It had to be a direct flight and 2-We had to have a two bedroom place so people could come keep me company while Jeremy is working his tail off. Everyone loves Seattle, so feel free to come visit!


**And another reason I love Jeremy, he agrees to take pictures like this one. Awesome.


Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Time clocks

During a payroll conversation today:

Receptionist: It's a time CLOCK, Ashley, not a time MACHINE.
Me: Might as well be a time machine. Every time I touch it 12 hours of my life disappear.

I really wasn't trying to be a smart a, but she was not amused. Oops.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Work work work

I've been working too much lately. Way too much. With RSV season in full swing, Primary's has been way too full and far understaffed. The benefit to this is that I'm working a lot of overtime and extras. The downside is that with the wedding creeping up, I can't say no to the extra money those shifts bring in. So it's been a lot of work lately, and no play. Boo. And the only thing saving my sanity is that I love my job. Don't love "going to work", but couldn't ask for a better way to spend the hours I'm at my job. And here's what I miss when I work so much-

Running
Tremonton trips (especially now that Ali is there)
Lunch with friends
Actually, any time at all with friends
Chillaxin with Jeremy in the evenings
Gym time with Jess and Bev
The Blue Crew
A clean house
Making dinner
Reading
Sleep
Early morning yoga with Erika
Being outside
Breathing

Time for a vacation. Or just a week off. Counting down the days til the honeymoon. 72!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

I'm happy to announce that in the past two weeks, when people asked about the wedding planning, I did not:

Roll my eyes
Sigh
Get annoyed/anxious/stressed/angry
Cry
Complain
Quickly change the subject
Unload all the hellish details of wedding planning
Leave the conversation

And that is a big step for me. I'm also happy to say that it's actually been fun to discuss all things wedding related lately. It should be even better after the consultation Wednesday. I'm getting so excited. I'm pretty sure THIS is what it's supposed to feel like, and I so enjoy finally feeling it.

Oh and Jeremy has a ring now. And Chrissi has a dress. And I have ribbons in my favorite colors. These are all good things.

And my friends are kick-ass and offered to throw bridal showers. This is the first thought that went through my head after discussing dates with Cami and Trudy- "I guess I'll have to check with my mom to make sure she'll have time to clean her house." And then I realized I don't have to do that because for the first time ever it's NOT at my house. That feels weird. And people won't let me help, which is also weird. I have mixed feelings about the whole 'go to a party, don't help with anything, let people give you stuff while everyone is watching you' idea. I'm a better host. This is new for me. We'll see how it goes. I feel weird about it. Excited, but weird.

I don't know how many days, but maybe I'll count tomorrow. Or someone can do it for me. :) It's coming up quick. Booyah!

Saturday, March 6, 2010

"The fresh hell that is wedding planning..."

I like to think I'm pretty easygoing. I can usually roll with the punches, spur of the moment is fine with me, I'm up for whatever. But I am a hardcore stresser. Always have been. I don't know why. It's annoying. It's pointless. It's a waste of time. But I can stress out with the best of them. It's something I need to work on. I have recently discovered that wedding planning brings out the stress like nothing else I have ever experienced. I was reading a wedding blog the other day (yeah, I do things like THAT now) and the writer mentioned "the fresh hell that is wedding planning". Right on, dear blogger.

I'm almost positive that I've heard people say they enjoyed planning their wedding. They thought it was fun, not stressful, loved every second of picking out every detail. I know I've heard this before... And now I know those people were LYING! Wedding planning=high stress, not fun, hard... I don't love it. But what I do love is that when I'm done with all this planning, I'll get to have an awesome party with all the people I care about, get to wear the most fantastic dress I've ever put on, and most importantly... I'll get to be married to the one dude that makes me smile, love, feel more than anyone else in the world. And for that, all the stress will be worth it.

We finally have a date and a place and that has made life this week much easier than it has been in the weeks past. It took multiple breakdowns, tears, phone calls, and hours to nail something down, but we finally did. And it's amazing how much relief I feel having that done. One thing that has made me realize is that I need to breathe. It's all going to work out in the end (haven't people been telling me that all along and I forgot to listen?) and I just need to relax and take it one detail at a time. Having the date/location stress off my shoulders has given me time to focus a little more on what's really important for the wedding. And what's really important is spending it with Jeremy.

Don't get me wrong. I'm excited to have all of our family and friends there. I so look forward to spending that day with the amazing people in our lives. But more importantly, I want our wedding to be about us. I want it to be the happiest day of our lives. I want Jeremy to feel different than he ever has when I walk down the aisle, because I already know I'll have to choke back some tears.

I so look forward to spending the rest of my life with Jeremy. I came to the hard realization that he is a much better fiance to me than I am to him. Through all my crying and flipping out, he has been incredibly patient and understanding and put up with more than anyone should ever have to. But I hope that we can be equally awesome husband/wife to each other.

I can't wait. Really. And not just because when the wedding finally gets here it will mean all the planning is done. Although I'm ready for that part too. I can't wait for the marriage. The rest of our lives. Together. That's the thing I look forward to the most. And that's what will make everything worth it. Seriously, can't wait.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

This guy



Want to know why I'm marrying this guy?
Taken from my journal April 20, 2008--

"There are so many things about Jeremy that I really like. He's shown me respect in a way that I didn't realize even existed. I don't think I've ever been around someone who is more respectful to me than he is. I appreciate that more than he could ever imagine. He makes me happy and he makes me laugh. He doesn't take life too seriously. He has this amazing spirituallity about him when he teaches, but balances it out by turning into Mr. Sarcastic the second he steps out of the church. I can relax with him and be myself. He really does make me want to be better and somehow makes me feel like I do the same for him. He's smart and motivated and ambitious. He takes care of me and does little things that make my day. He knows who he is and is comfortable enough with it that other people's opinions don't matter to him. He's patient with me, even when I'm spazzing out and probably driving him crazy. He's sarcastic and gives me a hard time and actually enjoys it when I give it right back. He doesn't fake anything or try to impress people. He's intellectual, determined, driven. But above all that, he RESPECTS me-- as a person, a woman, an equal, someone's daughter, someone's future mother. And I'll never be able to thank him enough for that."


Over a year and a half later, multiply all of that by 100 and that's how I feel now. I'm so lucky to have Jeremy in my life, and to be able to spend my life with him. Looove him.

And the things that make me love him now (in addition to the previous paragraph)--

He opens every door, everywhere we go, every single time. Still.

He fills up the hot water bottle whenever I don't feel well, and even remembers to put it in the car if he picks me up from work.

He lets me pick the music in the car the majority of the time, even though he doesn't like most of it.

He doesn't tell me what to do.

He lets me make my own decisions and then supports me in whatever I choose to do, even if he doesn't necessarily agree with my choices.

He's a lot more thoughtful than he lets on and he knows what I want before I do. (and usually gets it before I have the chance)

He congratulates me for being smart enough to finally wear a coat, even though he wants to tell me it's about damn time.

He makes me peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.

He keeps blankets and a heater close.

He knows when I need to eat before I do, and doesn't say anything when I get hunger bitchiness.

He bought dummy bullets for his gun so I could learn to handle it safely without being scared that it might kill me. He also let me tag along on a boys' shooting day so I could learn to shoot.

He's one of the smartest people I know. And only makes me feel dumb every now and then.

He lets me have my own opinions, even when he thinks they are wrong.

He has the bluest eyes you'll ever see.

He loves his parents and will do anything for them.

He has a bigger heart than anyone would ever guess.

He wears a bandana. Or a hoodie over his hat.

When we watch movie previews, we both dance in our seats to the music.

He doesn't let me win when we wrestle. But I usually win anyway because I'm so incredibly strong.

He bakes bread.

He is an incredible writer.

He makes me laugh every single day. Even when I'm trying hard not to or don't let him see that I am.

He still proposed, even after his life was threatened.

The list goes on and on. Basically, I lucked out with this kick-ass dude. I'm a lucky girl.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

And the answer is....

I would love to write out the whole two year story, starting with the HV5 and ending (which is actually another beginning) at Lake Michigan on a chilly Saturday, but I really have not had time. Not even 7 minutes. So here's what I will say for now.

We met.
We laughed.
We dated.
Everyone asked when we'd get married.
And dated. And laughed.
Everyone kept asking.
And dated.
We loved each other. (Probably me first. I fall, Jeremy "grows".)
We dated some more.
We told people to mind their own business when they kept asking.
We still laughed.
We went to Seattle.
We went to Chicago.
And then...

He got down on one knee.
I got all flustered.
He asked me to marry him!
I said YES!

And now my finger is sparkly and we are engaged and I cannot wait to be with him forever!

Details later. When I have time. Which could be MUCH later.